Today's rant :P

I really need to go off >.<

So this same girl who was obsessed with this guy for like ever last year, tried to go after Jessie and everything else is now engaged to some dude who she is “so in love with” and shes like a sophomore >:/ REALLY! Who does this shit!

When I met her she was obsessed with Dev, who had a girlfriend at that time. He eventually broke up with her for Kendra (The girl I am ranting about) and not long after they start dating they are engaged and sleeping together. Had this huge life planned out, everything. Right before school started this year (About 3months ago, mind you) they were broke up. Dev was chasing me like a dog in heat, and Kendra was doing everything in her power to break me and Jessie up. Including telling Jessie I was sexting Dev and telling me Jessie was cheating. Finally she got a new guy, Dev got his new girl last month, and they are both engaged after being together less than 2 months. She put she was engaged tonight and people were saying they were still in high school and they still had time. I about put “Look how that last engagement turned out.” She was saying how good the new boy treats her, better than Dev, and I’m sorry but Dev DOTED on her and adored her! I seriously don’t get this. >:[ I really hate people. They haven’t been together 2 months and they are engaged. I’m disgusted…

OH! Good news Jessie said he got me a black diamond ring :D I love love love black diamonds :DD yay. I hopefully get to see him Wednesday before class. Omg :) I is excited <3 I want my ring lol :) soooooo yeah my baby cousin was supposed to come up here with her family buuuut her dad was sick :( shes so cute and I want her.

I dyed my hair black too :D I love it. Halloween is tomorrow, my sister is going as batgirl, my dad’s dog is a ladybug, and the boy pup is a cow xD Gotta love a night when everyone is dressed crazy. Besides my parents and I, that is.

Has anyone ever noticed on album covers how differently the men and women are shown?

Like the ladies are shown sooooo provocatively, like "Look at me you know you want me." but the guys are posed like either standing or sitting there just like they're relaxed and don't care...which on some guys is sexy lol. But seriously. Some women are barely dressed standing back like they're ready for some guy to come and attack them. >:| I think the one female I've noticed who isn't done like that is Avril Lavigne. She is probably my idol :) She doesn't care and will tell how she feels. I respect her more than any celebrity.  :) Then its Hayley Williams from Paramore, and Amy Lee from Evanescence. They are fantastic singers and if I was a lesbian, they would be my crushes :) lol They all remind me of each other a little. Amy is so honest and sings about what we need to hear. That she knows she isn't perfect and she has had a hard time too. Hayley is the youngest I think, but she sings those songs that reach out and you just have to respect her. She sings about problems even from a teen perspective, but it's not Taylor Swift, its not all "this boy hurt my/im so in love with this boy" I love Tay but her music is all boys. >:/ And Avril is not afraid to hurt your feelings and tell you to shove off. I love her for it too :)

I can't do teenie bop music anymore. Its all Justin Bieber (or Beaver if you ask my sister) Miley Cyrus and other musical failures. :/ The few I honestly can say I like are ones like Demi Lovato, Miranda Cosgrove, and Selena Gomez. Demi went through some tough stuff, including hurting herself and I respect her whole heartedly for it. Miranda is the first teen star in a LONG time (since like Hilary Duff) who hasn't gotten in trouble or had a scandal. It's nice to see that now.

Ok I think I rambled enough for tonight. :) So until I get a comment, I won't be posting <3

Days 18-25 I do believe

There probably will be random lyrics through this, Just a fair warning....

Day 18: Favorite place to eat.
Probably Olive Garden. I love Italian.
Fast food: Probably Hardees. Delicious hamburgers, they have cherry coke, heck I love it there :) Best onion rings ever too :D lol

"You should never try to change me. I can be nobody else, and I like the way I am."

Day 19: Something I miss..
I miss innocence. Back when you didn't know what a broken heart was, or what could all go wrong....back when it wasn't so hard to try and live. Everyday now it's fighting, crying, jealousy, its just not fair. I miss being the little girl who never wondered or worried over anything except Pokemon.... It was so simple back then,...

Day 20: Nicknames (:
Depends on who you ask. I've been called a lot lol.
Meg\
Doodlebug (I will never claim this one >:|)
Doomer (Grandmothers lol)
Megz
Meggie
Ninja Penguin
Megaroo
Loser :)
Buddy
and some profanity lol


I love how everyone calls me something different. :)

 Day 21: And My fave pic of myself?
Its the one I put up of me and Jessie in an earlier blog. We looked so happy and I don't know It was just a good memory :)

Day 22: Whats in my purse?
Wallet with reciepts and pictures, IDs, and a couple dollars. Deodorant, Body spray and lotion, pens and other small school supplies, and my box cutter. :) lol I am not crazy. I live in a crazy town and if its either them or me, I got an advantage :D

Day 23: Dude I did my favorite movie(s) Forget this. Skip :P

Day 24:Something I have learned
I learned I have some of the worst trust issues in the world. On here I can be honest and not so afraid. But in this town, everyone looks out for #1. If they want something or someone, they will tear apart anyone in their way to get it. I had a girl lie about me and to me just to try and get Jessie...my family seems to bee self-serving pigs...I barely trust anyone in my life now...I am so scared of getting hurt :/

Day 25: iTunes :D
1. The Only One- Evanescence (LISTEN TO THIS BAND!!! ESPECIALLY TOURNIQUET AND MY IMMORTAL)
2. Good Girl Gone Bad- Rihanna <3 I love her voice
3. Come a Little Closer- Dierks Bentley (He is so awesome)
4. Melt the Sugar- The Summer Obsession
5. Got Me Down- Nina Gordon (THIS IS SO OLD, but awesome)
6. What You See is What You Get-Britney Spears (Old Brit <3)
7. Be Good to Me- Ashley Tisdale :)
8. One Love- Aiden (:D I love this song <3)
9. Quitter-Carrie Underwood (Idk lol)
10. Hell is for Children- Pat Benetar (So sad but so amazing.)

I gotta rant

Has anyone noticed nowadays every time 2 people begin dating, they automatically are "So in love" yet they break up not a week or 3 later and then those two people are in love with two others.

Love is a powerful word. You shouldn't just say it when you date a person. I said I love you" to only 2 people I dated. One was a stupid long distance thing, but we were together 3 months. So I mean it wasn't like I went from that person to another and said I love you. I mean it when I say 'I love you'. So I do have an emotional attachment to a person. I tell CLOSE friends, family, and Jessie that. I understand saying 'I love you' to a friend and not meaning it the way couples nowadays do. But you don't tell a guy you JUST started dating, barely know, and you definitely don't say it to the next guy you date the same day you date them. Its disgusting.

Maybe I'm old fashioned but when I say it....I mean it. I don't say it to everyone I so much as look at. Its special. Just like losing your v-card. You don't just go for the first guy who goes for your zipper. You are supposed to wait. I waited until I found the guy I was sure about, and even then it still scared me. I mean, I know now its ok, but then I was a wreck. But everyone is sleeping with everyone and I am so sick of it! I mean really....

And now kids are engaged at 14 and 15 to guys they have been with a few months. Seriously they are in high school. Most of those 'romances' end before either graduate. And ugh....I just am so disgusted with all of this......

And don't get me started on freaking drugs. My mini me, Mimi, has been getting stoned almost constantly. She got caught smoking pot on the bus from competition and just barely got away with it, yet she still is always stoned. I am so protective of her (shes like 15) and I went "Momma Bear" on her and she knows I don't lose my temper often, but that was enough crap to deal with.

So yeah I have very strong opinions....if anyone wants to hear a rant on gays (Pro gays btw) just ask lol I got enough ammo to go for days on that :) buuuut I think I went off enough for a little while

Gah! College is ruining my blog time Days 11-17

Day..... *checks* 11:

Favorite tv shows....I love me some dancing shows. Especially the male professionals. That is some shmexxi stuff whoo lol. Poor Jessie. I do this all the time xD
The show Chuck. So amazing <3
Uhmmm any sorta crime or murder show. I love watching weird stuff lol I am such a nerd

Day 12:
Something I don't leave the house without? My phone. This thing is my life <3 lol I have EVERYTHING on it lol gotta love my electronic dependency. :p And Usually my 5 year old ipod is with me too. I plan to get the iPod classic (40,000 songs nook :D) for my Christmas :) I got so much music lol Omg old Jesse MCCartney. So adorable and Gah!! :) lol I am having Cherry Coke withdrawal I ran out yesterday SO now I have Cherry Dr. Pepper. >:|

Day 13:
Goals... I want to get married and have babies <3 main goal, besides passing my college classes and figuring out a career. But I want to live somewhere either WAY out in the country, or in a big city. I don't like my small town. Everyone is too nosy. Ick lol I hate having strangers in my life. :p

Day 14

Uhm I can't find any pics of me on my laptop...oh wait theres one >.< sigh.... Well outwardly, my hair came back :D lol and....thats all I see :/ but inwardly I grew up. A lot. I don't take crap anymore, I know who I want in my life and who I don't. I know what I believe in and no one will change it. I am me and I am so proud.......dude I look stoned. I hate old pictures >:|

Day 15
Oh hell..... I have personal issues with the Bible. Its close minded and honestly, there is no verse that gets me....So fail.....Uhm..... I guess I can just put a quote that I like...yeah good idea.

Lil Wayne- "Love me or hate me, I promise it won't make me or break me"
Story of my life right thurr

Day....16? Gosh I am so far BEHIND
Dream house? Crap I never thought that far ahead. I just want a place I can raise a good family and have animals. :) I kinda fail at this xD

Day 17
Looking forward to.....uhm I dunno. I'm kinda just goin day by day. I love relaxing and such

And I think I give up for tonight Jeeze I made it from 11 to 17 so I think I did good lol I can continue later xD like while I make up a 3 page paper for my psych class >.<

Dang I am behind

I'm supposed to be on day 12.....lol I am trying to catch up but good grief xD I am trying.......

So I am totally changing my major. I love psychology, but I adore working with children. I want some so bad but if I'm not readyt to yet thanks to college, so I'm going for childcare :D I love working with kids they are the cutest little things EVER :) Only the littler ones, the bigger ones get so mean :/

I love babies :3 my cousin Maycie is like almost 3 months old and I fell in love with her <3 I love working with babies and watching the cute things <33 So yeah I can't wait :) I hope my classes will let me work with children quickly.  :D

Day 10. :p

Ahhhhhh my fears. where to begin....

SPIDERS!!!!!!!!!! I am terrified of these creepy little monsters
Clowns....ugh so gross and *shudder*
Snakes.....I will never like them

Yuck those are worst ones for me.... Spiders especially. I love heights, I love animals, but the second a spider pops up, its alllllll over

Jessie mocks me cause on Halloween I wig out like bad. So this is the worst time of the year for me.